October 31, 2011

[healing heart process - beginning of the END]

hey, dudettes & dudes.
how r U today?
I hope U remember my writings with the title "healing heart process"...
I said I won't stop writing until my heart is healed! I wrote 5 parts during my self- healing process and then I began to express my feelings with lyrics and quotes etc!
Well, today I feel much better, although sometimes memories come up and make me sad, but there are worlds between those days and NOW.
I feel free and I feel a change in my point of view of life.
I completely turned to an optimistic person... but I think, I'm still not willing to fall in love or start a relationship.
I'm satisfied with everything and everyone around me yet.
I can't complain!!!
Life goes on and everything will be the way U want it and U make it... you create your own life!!


October 03, 2011

[angels lie]

Bury all your secrets in my skin, come away with innocence & leave me with my sins. The air around me still feels like a cage & love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again. So if you love me, let me go and run away before I know my heart is just too dark to care. I can't destroy what isn't there. Deliver me into my fate. If I'm alone I cannot hate, I don't deserve to have you. My smile was taken long ago, If I can change I hope I never know I still press your letters to my lips and cherish them in parts of me. That savor every kiss I couldn't face a life without your light, but all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight. So, save your breath, I will not hear. I think I made it very clear! You couldn't hate enough to love! Is that supposed to be enough? I only wish you weren't my friend... Then I could hurt you in the end! I never claimed to be a saint... My own was banished long ago. It took the death of hope to let you go. So, break yourself against my stones and spit your pity in my soul. You never needed any help! You sold me out to save yourself and I won't listen to your shame. You ran away - you're all the same!! Angels lie to keep control! My love was punished long ago, if you still care, don't ever let me know!! If you still care, don't ever let me know!!!!